February is coming to a close at last and I can feel the beginnings of spring on its way! This year is passing quickly and I am astounded at all the new situations that I am encountering. Today, Joshua and I have a meeting with the landlord of the Creekside Apartments near Campbell University. When did I reach the age that I am touring apartments with my future husband? We also spent this past weekend registering at Target and Bed, Bath, and Beyond. It was so exciting to pick out the kitchen appliances, bedroom decor, and pretty much everything that a new couple will need to start their lives together. I was overwhelmed with choices, like whether to add the regular toaster oven to our registry or the adorable Hello Kitty toaster.
The most important decision I have made recently, my agreement to marry Josh, has been freaking me out recently. Please do not misunderstand me...I am so excited to be the wife of Joshua Michael Cox and I do not doubt any part of our relationship. My big issue is with being a wife in Christian ministry. Satan has been fighting hard to bring me down with all of the worries of the engaged Christians in ministry like where we live once we are married, how we will pay all of our bills, where we are going to get everything that we need to survive. In my human mind, I have always pictured the couple in ministry with holes in their clothes and popcorn for dinner five nights in a row.
What I was forgetting is that these worries are nothing to the Lord that we will be serving!
Matthew 6:30-31 and 33 says:
"But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is alive and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? Therefore do not be anxious, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you."
I think the Lord knows how much of a doubter I really am though, because he presented me with this verse in my personal devotions. Two days later, the pastor at Theater Campus spoke about the Rich Young Ruler. And one and half weeks later, Alta Whitt spoke about the same Rich Young Ruler and spoke about being a "trader." This video explains what she meant:
Obviously the Lord knows my worries and was not-so-subtly reminding me that He is in control. He will take care of the important life situations for Josh and I as long as we choose to trade our lives for His! So all of my decisions, worries, anxieties, troubles, and fears I am laying at the Lord's feet and trading my life to follow Him...even into the role of minister's wife in our first tiny apartment (possibly a Creekside Apartment) in December. I am now ready.
With Love, Tiffani Elizabeth "Rudy" Thomas
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